It's so hard. Can you tell i'm hanging by thin thread?
It's killing me.
But people tell me to hang on, to give more hope and faith. Until i cannot tahan anymore. If i weigh the pros and cons together, to be honest, the cons win more than the pros. This alone tells me: This is a red flag. And automatically, i want to stop giving more.

Then my other side of me will say: If you are not putting in effort, of course this will fail, you brainless moron

Then another voice will say: No effort?! What have i done? And look what have i get? 1300% of effort in exchange of a betrayal? WTF is that?!

Yes, this is what i talk to myself everyday, and after weeks of deliberation, i still have not found my answer yet.
Sometimes i hate the internet, how it shapes my life and the people i meet. Don't be mistaken! The people i talk to are awesome, it's just that Internet gives the ability to people to hide behind their true feelings, and me included.

Wouldn't it be nice if the world is Cadbury?